Wednesday, March 20, 2013

What Dreams are made of...


Image taken from somewhere on the Internet.
(read: I don't remember the link, so can't cite :P )


Purple Haze
Golden Glaze
Emerald Silk
of a butterfly's wings

Inky Mist
Silver Dust
Crimson Rays
of a setting sun

Orange Velvet
Yellow Fields
Translucent Drops
of morning dew

Burnt Barks
Brown Clods
Green Leaves
of a tender shoot

Dusky Clouds
Grey Winds
Electric Bolts
of lightning too

Sunny Horizons
Blue Ships
Black Silhouettes
of flocking birds

Many Hues
Many Cues
So many things to say and do
Are these what make up
your Dreams too?

~Written on 20th March 2013 #Original

PS: The post's title is "inspired" by a Hilary Duff song of the same name...:)

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Sharp Edges and Blunt Corners...

Have you ever hurt your toe or little finger against a particularly rough furniture edge? Ouch! Stings and hurts like hell, especially if the furniture is new, or its arrangement is new and you keep on bumping into the same corner and hurting the same toe, every now and then. Neither do you seem to learn your way about that particular corner, nor does the edge seem to blunt over time (even if you and others in the family have been hurt by it like a zillion times :( )

Sometimes, I think certain traits in our personalities can be like these rough furniture edges, you keep on hurting others (and yourself too) against them, again and again.
Bump. Sting. Curse. Ouch. Glare. Get by.
Never seeming to lose that sharp edge which cuts and hurts and keeps on aching sometimes for days together. It's almost like your very own bitter armour that you wear in the hope that it'll eventually protect you. But it never seems to do so...unless - you accept that the armour isn't what it seems to be, and is in fact your "furniture edge" - a sharp edge capable of stinging and bleeding people who are unfortunate enough to venture near and hurt themselves...unless - you accept that the "edge" is a problem and decide to do something about it, lest you keep on hurting people near you.

Wonder what's the solution? Waiting for this edge to blunt over a period of time, or try and be more conscious of our "rough edges" and avoid hurting people (and ourselves too) in the first place?

Hmm...think think think!

PS: Daemnn!! I have been suffering from the "rough edge" syndrome lately, and this is probably my guilt getting the better of me...*sigh* :-| ;-)
Guess its time to go and fix things up :-))

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Bangalore Diaries - Nostalgia+Gratitude

Bangalore, or Bengaluru, has come to hold a really special place in my life...and this post was really long due, but as it happens when you try to write about something that's special or favorite, nothing seems to do justice to the subject... :)

When I just moved there, I had actually listed down tons of things I noticed/felt, and wanted to write about the "new" city and its sights, clicked a lot of pics for my blog posts, and even had thought of a having a series on the blog titled - "Bangalore Diaries",(which is the title I would be using for this post as well...since I can't think of anything else right now).
But I never understood when that "new" city became a part of my life, so much so that now I can't write about the city as a third person... need to spend some more time before I can embark on writing something about the city, and its people :)
But since I was feeling pretty nostalgic since the past few days, I felt I should pen down a few thoughts...

It will be nearly a year since I switched jobs and shifted from B'lore... I clearly remember the evening in July when I first landed at B I A, with not much luggage to boot, a bit resentful at not having gotten a job I had then tried for, and slightly grumpy at having to join a firm I had always considered an 'option'.
But B'lore the city,never judged me harshly for my initial prejudice towards it...as if oblivious to (or may be in spite of) my preconceived notions, it extended a friendly hand, never judged me for being an 'outsider' to the culture, and taught me things I am really grateful for...

I can only feel gratitude - to the city that accepted me, the city that gave me my first 'job', the city that gave me a really awesome work experience and introduced me to a lot of amazing people and professionals. The city that taught me independence and self reliance. The city where I learnt that #growing up is as much about paying rent, managing bills and finances, worrying about price hikes, the pinch of 'month ends', the joy of getting the 'salary credited' SMS, as it is about being able to shop and eat out on a whim...;) The city where I learnt to make decisions and own up to their consequences. The city which taught me making mistakes is alright, even necessary, learning from them is what matters. (well, in an ideal world, not repeating them as well);)
The city that taught me that it's OK not to get your own way every single time. The city where I learnt that its not always bad if things don't go as per your plans.
Thank you Bangalore.

The major credit of my being at ease in a new city, has to go to my friends...friends I knew before, and friends I made at B'lore... writing anything like 'thank you' or expressing gratitude would seem really really shallow, and I mean it when I say I can't express feelings about fav people/things...words never do justice :)
Love you folks! You know who you are :) (Most probably, by now, I would have pinged you incessantly till you read this post too ;-) )

I think that should do for now, and since I haven't really written anything here, except explain a hundred times how/why I can't write; I better sign off...
Ciao!

Thursday, January 3, 2013

A "Wishlist Wednesday" post

This is the first time I am participating in any online writing contest. :) Came across this contest, called "Wishlist Wednesdays", in Preeti Shenoy's blog , and thought of contributing an entry.

The contest was to complete the following writing prompt Preeti had posted : "I wish everyone loved..."

Here's my entry for Wishlist Wednesday #4.

I wish everyone loved their own company. I wish that people would feel happy just to "be" with their own selves.
I am not a saint and I too am guilty of "that feeling when you HAVE to call/ping/talk/meet somebody". In fact, that's the feeling I fight every single day as I walk back from office... :-P

These are the days of wireless connectivity, instant gratification. However, cliched it might sound, the irony is that we are in tune with what the entire world is doing/thinking/sharing (including the people we hardly know); everyone, except our own selves!

We need to be more centered. More focused. More calm.

Many times as I walk back from office, I have this urge to call people. Talk. Ping. Share. WhatsApp. Radio. Playlists.
Anything, but walk back by myself.
Strange, but true.
It's not that I detest walking, or even walking alone, but somehow I have gotten into this habit...especially when I walk out of office. (And yes, I am also indirectly boasting that my home is within walking distance from office :D)
The weird feeling of "I need to be connected. NOW. This very minute." grips me as soon as I set my foot out of the office.

I feel we need to start being at ease with ourselves. It's OK if you don't call anyone immediately. Its OK if you don't tune in to your radio as soon as you step out. Its OK if you forget your headphones (intentionally) and give your ears much needed relief. :P
Its OK if you take time out, look around, appreciate the fact that you have a home and family to go back to, at the end of the day. Its OK to try and see the changes seasons bring about in nature, the skies and trees around you. Its OK to fight the urge to call people. Its OK to learn to be by yourself.

Wishing everyone a wonderful 2013 and hope you enjoy your own company some more this year! :D


PS: The result of the contest is here .
Yours truly got a special mention, something like a first runner's up :P :D

Sunday, December 30, 2012

The Storytellers

This is probably the first 'story' on my blog. :)
Although when my mother read it, she felt she had read a story along similar lines somewhere. So, it might be "inspired" by some existing story, but I can't recall reading it, nor could my mom, so unable to cite the source of "inspiration". But for sure, the setting, the characters and the wordings are completely #original. Here we go...


It was an idyllic January mid-morning and the sleepy town of C had woken up, rubbed off its sleep with generous doses of filter coffee and had set about its daily chores. The local coffee stall had already doled out delicious plates of dosa, laced with dollops of butter and fresh coconut chutney, and second helpings of coffee, to its usual morning customers and was preparing for its lunch hour rush. The postman (lets call him Mr.P, for want of a better name), ambled along in his khaki uniform and trademark bicycle, carrying parcels and occasionally nodding to an acquaintance on his way. He climbed up the stony path to Doddappa's house. Doddappa, as was usual, was in his garden, hunched upon near the rose bushes.

Doddappa had a lovely garden which he tended to lovingly, almost like his own child. His garden had flowering plants - roses, jasmine, and a long line of hibiscus shrubs. The hibiscus trees grew taller than most hibiscus shrubs Mr. P had seen, and they came in all imaginable hues : yellow, crimson, orange, white and shaded varieties. He had patches of the usual coconut and betel-nut trees. Sliding up the tall betel trees were smaller green pepper climbers. But what Doddappa was most proud of, were his bonsais. He had built a special shed for them. It was said that he had the biggest collection of bonsais in the district, may be even the state. And he was considered an expert on tending and growing bonsais. Every time Mr. P passed his garden shed, he wondered how the small miniature plants could mimic their actual taller counterparts and marveled at the the tiny chickoos, mangoes and oranges that they bore. Every time he decided to ask Doddappa all about the art of bonsai...

Presently, he parked his cycle in front of the gate, and walked up to where Doddappa was working. He waited patiently and cleared his throat lightly, till Doddappa sensed his presence and looked up. "Ah, here you are." he exclaimed. Mr. P nodded and looking at the parcel he had brought along said, "Fine morning, ain't it Doddappa. How are the bonsais today? Something came for you by post this week. Looks like your son has sent you a present! " Doddappa got up, smiled and said, "Yes, the boy is getting responsible by the day. Good thing he remembers his old man", and winked at Mr. P. "Come in, have some coffee and help me write a thank you letter, will you?" he asked as he shuffled towards the house. Mr. P followed him.

It was their custom. Mr. P timed his visit to Doddappa's home always at the end of his morning rounds so that he could spend some leisurely time. He then used to read out Doddappa's letters to him. Doddappa was a widower and he had only two people who often wrote to him. Doddappa's son, who had enrolled in the army and used to send frequent letters, and a distant cousin sister settled somewhere in North India, who sent him the customary Diwali and New Year Seasons Greeting cards. Mr. P also helped Doddappa write replies to his son's letters. This was their custom since a few years, and as the years passed by, Mr. P had become the bridge between this long distance father-son relationship. Often Mr. P also helped Doddappa with his bills, pension forms and the like. Doddappa enjoyed Mr. P's company. He would often treat him to dosais and hot fluffy idlis.

Today, with the air of a conjurer doing his favorite trick, Mr. P handed Doddappa the parcel and said, "Open it Doddappa, Santa didn't forget you this year. Your son sends a gift parcel."
"Hmm..I wonder what the boy sends this time", Doddappa said as he unwrapped the brown paper packet. He took out a pair of bright green gardening gloves and his eyes were as shiny as the plastic bag he took them from. "The boy, he never fails to surprise" he said as he tried them on, "after all he takes after his father, you know" he added, winking at Mr. P.

Doddappa poured out two steaming hot cups of filter coffee in steel glasses and opened a pack of biscuits.Mr. P had already gotten his pen and notepad and was sitting at the dining table, ready to write down Doddappa's reply. "Tell him", began Doddappa, "I absolutely loved the gloves" He went into a dialogue mode, as if talking to his son. "Although how come you know what I seem to be craving for, is still a mystery. I take care not to breathe a word about it to you, mind you, because I don't want to trouble you with these small things. But somehow it seems we have a working long distance telepathy! Last year I saw those fancy spectacle frames of the librarian Mr. J, and the next month, you had similar ones sent to me. In July, I hobbled a bit, and the doc Mr. Kurien advised me to use a stick, (although I insisted it was all because of the rains and slippery grounds). I liked the wooden stick with its carved handle you sent so much, that I started using it only show off to my buddies during the evening walk. (I still can walk along by myself, don't need that stick for support, you see ;-) ). " He paused and got up to refill his coffee cup. "Also, " continued Doddappa, talking as if his son was right in front of him, "I am well. Everything here is going just fine, the plants are good too. You should be taking care of yourself. Last time you wrote saying they do not make good coffee up north, so I am sending a few packets of filter coffee with this letter. Hope they deliver it to you. Come home soon, boy, I wait for you." His voice trembled a bit, and Mr. P looked up from his writing, handed Doddappa a biscuit and nodded understandingly. "Hmm..Mr. P here sends his regards. Wishing you good health and success always. Take care and write again to me soon, boy. Lots of love, Appa". He sighed and stopped.

For sometime, they both drank their coffee in silence, each lost in a world of their thoughts. Then Mr. P got up and said, "I should get going now Doddappa, have some work to finish before its lunch time." He folded the letter Doddappa had dictated, collected his cap and set out.

Doddappa bid him adieu, and hobbled into his son's room. He opened his cupboard and placed the gloves, along with the shiny plastic bag and the brown paper wrapping beside the specs frame and the walking stick. He opened the drawer and lovingly looked at the belongings the Army had sent back, two years ago. His eyes moistened as he put a bunch of fresh white roses and jasmines in front of his son's photo and said a silent prayer for his soul. Then he sat at his desk and began writing his daily diary.

Outside his home, Mr. P climbed his bicycle and started back to the post office. A few tears fell and stained his khaki uniform darker, as he remembered the day he had to deliver news of his boy's death to Doddappa. He couldn't bring himself to do it, and then decided that he better delay the news for as long as possible. He knew Doddappa disliked the TV. He also never subscribed to a newspaper, he probably had trouble reading and writing, Mr. P had thought. That was when he had started posting the letters and parcels to Doddappa.

And thus had begun their journey, Mr. P and Doddappa, each playing along with the other. Every time coming up with a different screenplay for the 'letters'. Each living his own story and painting a new picture for the other every single time. It was almost as if they had stopped writing the letters and the letters themselves now wrote their story...

Afterall, our lives make stories and stories make our lives...

Monday, October 8, 2012

That thing called life

Some moments change your life
They toss it, churn it, spill it, turn it upside down
And nothing is ever the same again

Sometimes the sun rises without a hint
Of the havoc and turmoil that's about to begin

Some nights are pitch black
Moonless, cloudless
With not a star to shed light on your path

Some storms never cease
They howl, pound and rattle your home
Determined to uproot your very being
while you shudder and cower in fear

Some pits are bottomless
Deep Dark Unfathomable

Some woods never allow sunshine to seep through
They harbour wild blazing fires within
Whose intoxicating smoke and licking flames
Threaten to burn the very core of your soul

Some nightmares never end
They recur till you are scared to fall asleep

Some sorrows span lifetimes
Some wounds grow deeper with time
and never turn into scars
Some tears never go out of sight
and mark entire lives with their streaks

And then there are those things that remind you
Of a time not so long ago -
of happy moments -
Blemish free days -
Starry nights -
Blue-clouded skies -
Clear paths -
Grass-scented woods -
Peaceful slumber -
Healing scars -

Precious memories
That make the struggle worthwhile
Afterall,
It's just that thing which we call life.

--Written on 5th Oct, 2012

Monday, September 10, 2012

TGIM!

Monday morning, almost noon. Mid September, if you stand looking out from one of the windows @ my office, you can see the huge expanse of green in front, displaying a whole gamut of shades, as if daring the camel/asian paints/colour-making companies to catalogue the numerous and varied shades of green... Amidst this serene atmosphere, a solitary eagle takes flight. A gentle flap-flap of wings and then it soars, turns and circles - smoothly, calmly, effortlessly - gliding across the cloudless blue sky and over the lush green meadow - once, twice, thrice - without a single flapping of wings. Round and round it goes, its rich golden brown wings glistening with the moisture of freshly fallen rain drops. Its eyes sharp and sparkling, ready to take on the day. I stood at the window for a long long time, trying to capture the breathtaking sight...Marvelling at the graceful flight, the magnificence of nature that never ceases to awe, you can't help but feel grateful for everything in life... Some days just start on a super awesome note...this is one of those days... Makes me say, Thank God it's Monday!! :-)